give us this day our daily bread
i can't claim this to be an original musing, but it is a paraphrasing and compliment to a podcasted sermon on the topic of prayer.
after hearing one bit of the sermon i was hit with a healthy dose of conviction. i over look the important and blessing of prayer so often. it is an area i let slide in my walk with the Lord, unintentionally...i really just forget. and that is a reflection of an incomplete understanding of its power and priority.
as the pastor of this podcast mentioned, you can take one of two paths in your day-to-day existence: self-sustenance or God-sustenance. self-sustenance is our default, or at least it is mine. it is the mindset that tells us we can rely on no one but ourselves for our daily needs: physical, emotional, cognitive, financial, spiritual. but the self is limited, easily depleted. God-sustenance is infinite and unfailing. an unending supply of all we need if we only asked for it, waited upon it, trusted it. how often i do not do any of those things, and it is ready for the taking.
sometimes it is a bit confusing to know exactly what your mindset is, whether you are geared with a heart seeking self-sustenance or God-sustenance. as the pastor related, your choice is made evident in your prayer life. do you come to God earnestly? daily? in the small and big moments? i most often only come to Him in a crisis, when something has gone wrong in my life or the life of someone dear to me. i only come to Him for the big things, seeing the small decisions as things i can handle on my own, that don't require His assistance or guidance. i only come to Him in times of woe or sorrow, forgetting to come to Him in praise and celebration. how foolish of me.
when Jesus instructed us on how to pray, part of that prayer asks "give us this day our daily bread." not "monthly" or "annually" or "lifetime" supply of bread, DAILY. God wants us to come to Him daily for sustenance, because our hearts and spirits thrive more fully when we recognize our need of Him, when we take advantage of his omnipresence and reservoir of love, peace, and joy consistently, not periodically. we are reliant on Him whether we know it or not, and the more we own up to it, and wrap ourselves in that truth, the more sustained we feel in any an all situations. when we don't come daily, for the small and big things, we feel spiritually dry, feel Him to be distant. or at least that is what i have found, and i usually blame Him for being silent, distant.
we so often see reliance on any other as a weakness. we've been silently or out-rightly molded into a mentality of "every man for himself," that we can depend on no one but ourselves. but even we are not so dependable, not so limitless. we are all in the end reliant on something or someone, and may we give thanks that we have such a reliable Father to be reliant upon.