Tuesday, May 29, 2012

haunted

echoes trace the walls.
whispers hide in the cracks
of fog framed windows,
sighs seep through the crevices
of aged wooden floorboards.
shattered glass carpets the ground:
a vast sea of shards.
so even the softest, 
most cautious of steps,
each slight movement,
pierces,
imprisons you.
the oscillating light, flickering.
bright bursts, flashing.
unpredictable.
the dissonant pattern
burns new scars
onto your retinas.
a re-creation, not a reflection.
attempts at flight as futile
as attempts to escape your own shadow,
with the intangible
clinging to the scent in the room.
swimming through the musty air.
entwined in the hallowed space.
it’s attached to every sound,
an ingredient of the resonance,
the aftertaste of every breath,
it's the heaviness upon your lungs.
your crumb trail,
left as a map of escape,
was long blown away
by the stationary breeze.
your searching steps,
blind and hopeless,
become a delicate dance
of awkward navigation,
joined by an invisible partner
whose echoes
trace the walls.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

deserted


ghost town
where the taste of echoes
heard by no one
become the cadence of your hopes.
and the smell of ash,
essence of hickory or cedar,
clings to your clothes
like the aftertaste of nightmares,
(unshakable),
or sweetness of dreams
(wished-real),
clings to your thoughts.
kicked pebbles test the waters
measure the depth of the road
that you must walk alone:
chase after their retreating sounds.

ghost town
with stuffy, thick air:
a paradoxical embrace,
comforting suffocation.
a distant flame
burns in scentless silence,
with blinding brightness.
but what good are eyes
if they are shut?
drink in the
shells of your former self
skeletons
of your growing pains
become acquainted with
their cold remains
laid in the eternal sun.

ghost town
splinters grown familiar,
calloused
in your toughened spirit.
reminders of where you’ve
come from
calls to where you 
must go
the pain fuses with nostalgia
intertwined and
part of progression
as you dance along
unimpressionable sand
no footprints left behind
no way to return once you’ve gone
to your
ghost town

Monday, May 21, 2012

tongue

...the tongue is a small thing, but makes great speeches. but, a tiny spark can set a great forest on fire.
~james 3:5~



inspired from a discussion among friends, which left me feeling convicted: words have great power, and the way we wield them makes them weapons of good or ill. we don't often think about it, but we have a great amount of responsibility with words, with how our tongue emits speech.  the "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" couldn't be more false...words can do more than hurt, they can permanently damage, leaving the deepest type of burns, bruises, and scars on the hearts and spirits of others.  there is no salve for them, no anecdote.  they can become an echoing poison that circulates without end in the blood of our deepest thoughts.   

we are more aware of the negative impact of words, the tongue’s daunting potential for ill. we think less upon equally powerful ability of the tongue to bringing blessings.  looking at proverbs alone, words can be: "sterling silver", "helpful", "wise advice," "a tree of life," "like honey-sweet to the soul and healthy for the body," "deep waters," "more valuable than much gold and many rubies.  words can "encourage many," "bring many benefits", "bring healing," "can satisfy like a good meal." the tongue can bring an exponential variety of blessings, in all sorts of packaging.

we should not only be mindful of the words we use, but the words we withhold.  if we were truly looking, each day, almost every interaction with another human being we have in our moment-to-moment life, provides opportunities to bless others with words.  our tongues can bring encouragement, sympathy, comfort, compliment, kindness, healing, and affirmation.  sometimes, when the Spirit has prompted me to do so, i hesitate or skirt around the pull to use my words to bless.  for some reason it is intimidating at times to step out and say something heartfelt, deep, and kind...because how will it be received?  will the gift of my words be accepted? misinterpreted? will they just find me odd for saying something more than just superficial pleasantries?  the state of our society is to keep everything light and uncomplicated.  but whose heart or life is either of those things? truly?

this led me to thinking of how many conversations i have daily, in which i ask something to the degree of "how are you?" and i get the standard-issue-response of "fine?" it has become a hoop we all jump through, something that must be said to get on with what needs doing in our ever-so-important schedule.  this thought renewed a personal challenge: ask sincere questions, questions intended to shake off the mask of superficial "life-is-swell”, really ask in order to really know someone.  if you ask sincere questions, you tend to get sincere answers. you or the person you are asking might find this uncomfortable at first, you might become anxious about a real conversation emerging, one that may take several minutes, or several hours, or a life time of similar conversations, rather than a quick 1 or 2 minute case-closed situation.  you may be fearful of taking on the responsibility of deepening friendship, of coming along side someone to carry their burdens with them by truly getting to know who they are.  but you won't regret it.  the times i get past my selfishness, use my tongue to deliver sincere questions or sincere words of encouragement, i have always been blessed back.  

so, if our tongues are a spark that can set a forest aflame, let it be a fire unexpected, one the modern world finds foreign: a fire of sincere words intended to lighten the loads on the soul and to truly know the hearts of those in our lives. 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

fall

as you drop off
focus & recall
the safe way to fall.
be straight, be still
and the wind will take
you where you can't break.

subtle shifts of weight
as you finally let go:
lay down the need to know.
the darkness then makes faith
a blinding lighting flash-
pointing to a safe place to crash.

with nothing to grab onto,
find freedom in gravity's sway
sureness is "being swept away".
so spread out your arms,
to taste the wind with finger tips,
drink in twilight in tiny sips.

beauty found in contradiction
as letting go holds the ability
to make falling into stability.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

vertigo


recoiling in mental vertigo,
scratching blind for the surface,
for a way back to yourself.

close your eyes.

you can hold the memory.
retreat to sleep,
and cling to it in dreams.
escapism for flotation
as the current’s against you,
carrying to a strange unknown.

hold your breath.
keep it in.
make it last.
or mange by growing gills,
submerged & weighted  
under water and waves .

the nostalgia serves for air:
the sweet remembrance,
weaving you in with the tide.
then it matters not
where surface and depth
in fact lie.